Thursday, March 29, 2007

'There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart Like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You'

.:sherlyn:. @ 10:57 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

i eat, i eat, i eat eat eat.
somehow i dont seem to be able to resist from food no matter how hard i tried controlling myself. my friends around have been reminding me of the 10kg. but but but its not a bad thing afterall what bcos to be able to eat is such a blissful thing. HAHA

.:sherlyn:. @ 8:10 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

SHUTING AND TRINA SAID I LOOK LIKE DOG NOW BECAUSE OF MY FRINGE. OH MAN!!!

.:sherlyn:. @ 9:00 PM

i think God is such a good God that take care of every aspect of our life.

today i was out celebrating jinjing's birthday. im kinda broke and just have enough to pay for my yuki yaki buffet and God bless me with a treat from a complete stranger. its a long story so in short, i think there're definitely nice people around and my God is awesome. the money which was initially use for paying buffet can now be use for bowling. all in all the day was great(:

one week of hols is going to be gone just like that. im glad to say i enjoyed myself and my every single day was well spent though i didnt do much studying and spent it on having fun and recharging myself because i foresee alot of hardwork coming up(:

.:sherlyn:. @ 12:05 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

common test for english was such a spoiler with less than 5 passing from each class. obviously i failed with a pathetic 5/25.

.:sherlyn:. @ 9:10 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

'Hi, my name is Joanna Chan and I wish to share with all of you how God has showered His grace and mercy on me in healing me.

I have been suffering from chronic migraine since the age of four. As a child, it began as frequent stomach aches, nausea and giddiness which I would describe to my parents as “fever” in my limited vocabulary. I was also very sensitive to bright lights, loud sounds, crowds, stress, and some foods like dairy products and food which contained MSG. Even walking through a shopping mall can bring on an attack. Hence my lifestyle has always been different from that of other normal kids. I was on long term MC as I could not take part in PE. Even swimming was out for me as the movement and shimmer of the waters would make me ill. Many of my schoolmates would avoid me as they were afraid that I might throw up when I got sick and that happened quite often in fact. I would fall ill from long school bus rides and my mum eventually had to get a car to shorten my traveling time.

The migraine symptoms got worse as I moved into secondary school. The symptom of painful headaches set in. I experienced severe dizzy spells and painful throbbing headaches almost every other day. Often, I would just feel like the entire world was spinning rapidly around me and the only cure would be to sleep the migraine off in a dark quiet room. My life was greatly affected by this condition. I spent a lot of time sleeping as I simply could not function when I was ill. My grades fell as a result. My social life was almost non-existent as I had barely enough energy to get through each day and try to cope as best I could in my studies.

Through the years as a migraine sufferer, I was always on medication. These included drugs to prevent dizziness and nausea, reduce the frequency of the attacks and strong painkillers. The medicine did not seem to work for me at all as I constantly felt ill despite taking them. At some point in time, my parents even took me off the medication without the doctor’s advice as it really made no difference to my health.

Brain scans done through the years thankfully always showed that there was no tumour or growth. My parents sought the advice of different doctors but all of them found my case very challenging and could only treat the symptoms. In their words, there is no cure for migraine and the medicine prescribed could only try to reduce the incidence of attacks. I was admitted to hospital at least once a year, when I would get a very severe migraine attack.

Often times I would ask God in despair why I had to suffer like this and not lead a normal life like all my friends. I felt life was just passing me by and I was just a miserable bystander. Despite everything I knew that God was always beside me. I want to testify of God’s goodness to me during my O level exams in 2005. I collapsed with a severe migraine attack during my very first O level paper and could not complete it. It was with much prayer and fasting on the part of my parents that I managed to get through the rest of the papers. When the results came out, I was overjoyed to know that I scored the very aggregate that I had been praying so hard for – 10 points. It was a dream come true for me as I had always been an average student struggling to cope with my studies despite all the downtime I had. God was so good to me. With this score, I could choose any course that I wanted to in the polytechnic. I prayed and opted for a course in Biomedical Science.

Things started to take a turn for the worse on 27th March 2006. That was the day when I first lost consciousness without any warning. I was at the ice skating rink with my friends and after just ten minutes of skating, I felt tired and sat down. The next thing I remembered was that I was in an ambulance with a tube down my throat. I had to be warded for about three days before they discharged me.

After this incident, my health went back to normal. No more fainting spells and I happily started my first term at Ngee Ann Polytechnic thinking the worst was over. However, my nightmare was just beginning. In June 2006, I was out with my friends for dinner when I suddenly lost consciousness and collapsed. I was rushed to the hospital and was warded for ten days. The doctors ran many tests on me but could not put a finger to the cause of these fainting episodes.

Between July to early November, I was admitted to hospital another four times. I was having frequent episodes of unconsciousness. I would just crumple in a heap without warning anytime and anywhere. The doctors ran EEG tests and diagnosed this as Juvenile Absence Epilepsy caused by a misfiring of neuro-transmitters in the brain. This condition terrified my parents greatly. It meant that I could not be left alone at all and I stopped attending classes and church almost altogether. My mum had to accompany me everywhere, even sitting outside the classrooms while I tried to catch classes on the few days I felt a little better.

As the weeks passed, I could no longer keep up with my studies as I had missed too many lessons and was too ill to even get by each day. In November, we applied for deferment for one semester till April 2007.

In October, I experienced the worst headache of my life. On a scale of 1 to 10, it was probably 12. I was literally crying out in agony and anguish for more than 24 hours. Painkillers and an injection at an emergency clinic did not help at all. I was hitting the wall and crying in pain, not being able to eat, sleep nor rest. My parents prayed and cried with me. There was nothing they could do to help.

Those were the darkest days of my life. At times I really felt like giving up. I felt so empty, lost and depressed. Everyone around me: my cell group, my parents’ cell group, my friends and family were all praying so hard for me. Why wasn’t God hearing our prayers? I had no answers. I could only cry out for His mercy on me as I was in so much anguish and pain, not just physically but emotionally too. I felt like ending my life as I saw no reason to continue living in such misery. At the lowest point in my life when I felt totally discouraged, depressed and helpless, the Lord intervened.

On 12th of November 2006, my mum attended the Sunday morning service in church. During the sermon, Pastor Derek asked the congregation to practise exercising the gift of prophesy on each other. A young lady my mum had never met before partnered her and told her, “I see a picture of a healing hand. The Lord says that what you are praying for healing will be given to you.” In faith and with gratitude in our hearts, my family took that as a promise from God and clung on tightly to that word. In the days that followed, I was not feeling any better and we became increasingly anxious.

From the 13th to 15th of November I lost consciousness and could not be roused for thirty five hours flat. However, during this period of unconsciousness, I experienced what some may call a near-death experience. I saw myself in a dark, narrow tunnel walking towards a light at the end of it. However, I felt a strong force pulling me back into the dark tunnel making it extremely difficult for me to move towards the light. This light at the end of the tunnel became another one of the promises God gave to me that a breakthrough was near.

Another time when I was lying in bed too dizzy and in too much pain to move, I had a vision. I saw a beautiful rainbow behind a cottage. I felt in my spirit that the rainbow was a promise from the Lord that I would be healed soon. As my 17th birthday on 3rd December 2006 was approaching, I asked the Lord for the best birthday present that anyone could ever give me: complete healing for my medical conditions.

On the 27th of November 2006, my parents took me to the National Healing Campaign rally at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. We queued up from five in the evening to be seated in an area for the sick. As the service progressed, I felt more and more ill as the lights were bright, the music loud and the place was filled to capacity. I was very giddy, unwell with a bad headache and a sense of desperation for God not to pass me by that night. I told the Lord that if I could only touch the hem of His garment tonight, I would be healed. At around midnight, Prophet T B Joshua was praying for people near me. I must admit I was very afraid when he came to me for fear that he will see an evil spirit in me. However, when he approached me, he just placed his hands on my temple. He prayed silently in the spirit and I fell under the Holy Spirit’s power. I went home that night still feeling ill, determined just to go home to sleep it off yet again. That night, as an act of faith, my parents and I agreed that I should stop taking all my medication.

The following two days, I could not get out of bed. I was certain I was not sick with migraine as the feeling of unwellness was clearly different. My bones ached and I had chills and was shivering under the blanket. We concluded that it might have been drug withdrawal symptoms as I had been on quite a lot of medication daily. It was not a nice feeling but by faith I told myself that God had healed me already and that this was the last time I will have to be ill like this.

I woke up tired but feeling well on the third day. I felt like another person altogether. I have been steadily regaining my energy levels and since then, I have not had any more dizzy spells, painful headaches or fainting spells!

It is amazing to know that God has healed me miraculously after 13 years in that condition. He is indeed Jehovah Rapha who proves Himself faithful and true when I put my trust in Him. The healing was indeed my 17th birthday gift from the Lord, given to me 5 days early. He is true to all the promises, words and visions He had given to me and my family last year. Praise and glory be to the Lord Jesus Christ. He is my Healer.

Joanna Chan
Urban Race Ministry'

this is what abigail shared to me online just now. im simply amazed about what my God have been doing around other people lives.i feel so inspired and was once again convinced that nothing is too great my God cannot handle. often i belittle what my God can do and choose to do things my way and not putting Him into the picture. this is an area that i often struggle to let go and im still learning to trust in Him completely. but this does not mean that i dont love God because i love Him more than i love anybody and He has already become a part of my life.

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME(:
ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD(:

.:sherlyn:. @ 8:53 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

buffet was yummy and i eat like there's no tomorrow. HAHA

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:07 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

i've finally decided to drop my emath. its a really hard decision that i've been struggling for weeks to make bcos alot went thru my mind. since i've make this decision, i'm gonna make the best out of it and bang on the other remaining subjects. i dont want to be dropping emath and wasting my time doing stupid stuffs bcos i know i will be letting myself and most importantly daddy down as im not doing my best. JIAYOU SHERLYN(:

reply to tags:
szemin--> hello(:
claire--> i bought chicken essence(:
ethel--> nah its ok bcos i passed the test(: make sure you do your job as my secretary efficiently next time ah. HAHA
jj--> yeah(: i wonder if there's such opportunity next time.
vanessa--> HAHA happy new year to you too. loves(:
kel--> be patience and continue waiting first laa(:
Shiyou--> i miss your presence alot. email us again on your current situation and let us know how you are doing. LOVES(:
claire--> yeah you are recently super nice to tag my blog. HAHA. i'll mock at you the next time i remember(: oops!
shuting--> yeah i've taken super long to make the decision and im not gonna regret. thanks(:

.:sherlyn:. @ 8:23 PM